But Hrcho, the problem I see is that you are trying to get a grasp of the Christian God. You judge of Him, being tyranical, having human issues. But like you said, to descripe a higerh being, it is flawed. To judge a higher being, well, that too is flawed I assume.
Furthermore, people who are trying to survive long enough to make it into a future that is perfect, well, they haven't understood what being a Christian is all about. You have to make an effort. Not that the effort it self will make my faith work, or will bring redemption, but you need it. Just as much as I need to put effort in my marriage. Being married doesn't say much about the content of the marriage. If I don't put an effort in saying to my wife she is beautiful once in a while...which she is obviously, and helping her with stuff, spending time together, being sincere interested in her life, sharing my thoughts, my hopes, my dreams, my troubles, my lack of action can, and probably will cause marriage problems.
If I turn it around though, even with putting an effort in my marriage doesn't give me any guarantee it will work though.
Living in faith should be about being aware that the world we live in, indeed needs redemption. I for myself, if I look at the world, can not imagine this is it. Again, no logic's, pure faith. I cannot accept that children are dying due to lack of clean water, medicine or food. I can not accept people are freezing to death, being lonely, rape others, kill others for the sake of personal gain. I can not accept that people are so heartless that they gain millions without looking out for others.
Due to this, I hope, I want the Bible to be true. Cause this book says that people are acting like this and that the content of this book is saving me. Well, I can watch God, I can look at some of the actions described in the bible and ask why? Thing is I will not grasp it, I will not understand it, but someday I might.
Christian life should not be about fear, but should be about compassion, love for other individuals, serving others, and indeed hope for a better future.....